If Only People Could See…

The most rewarding part of doing portraits for Face to Face is the face of each recipient when presented with the portrait of their loved one. Most have tears in their eyes seeing the person they love so much memorialized and honored.  The look of love and their gratitude that they show when they receive their gift is beyond what words can convey.

I struggle with funding for this outreach, and some days I wonder whether I am half crazy to  be doing this instead of searching for work and a regular income.  I have to deal with my own grief as well as experiencing the grief of each family when I draw their portrait. I believe that the Holy Spirit gives me a glimpse of each family’s pain so that I can pray for them and so that I will work with compassion in my heart.  I doubt myself at times and I doubt God’s willingness to provide the funding that we need.  After what I have been through with my three losses in 60 days and how bizarre the circumstances were, I know, I know, I shouldn’t doubt that God allowed all of that to happen so that I could move forward with Face to Face.   My finances have been pretty bleak and I am questioning God about that as well. Then, just as I am in despair, another door opens and a donation comes in  that funds another drawing. One after another, and when I get the opportunity to present them, it is the most rewarding thing I have ever done.  To be able to help someone who has been through what I have and sometimes worse is what makes it worth it all. If only everyone could see the look on their faces, they would all be wanting to donate more. If only…

Mary Ann Evans

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